First I would like to address God and my inhibition to use The Word. In my day-to-day conversations it is so much easier to use the so-called curse words than I would say God. There is ease in using more abstract words like the “universe” or the “heavens” or “events take its course” or “Divine”. For the past months I have been trying to overcome this block and to many levels I have and in many levels I have not.
Recently I have been pondering on WHY is this reluctance. I recognised it has come with a lot of social conditional and religious restraints. I could not contain that GOD prefers me to wear “traditional clothes”; God would punish me for not having ”Good Behaviour”; God is non-accepting and punishing of my “ungodly thoughts” and the list goes on.
As I was reading the first few pages of “Conversations with God” (by Neale Donald Walsch) it suddenly fell on me that He can be just like The Big Friendly Giant (from the Spielberg Movie BFG). Ofcourse he has no rules.
If He is beginning and He is the end as mentioned in Upanishads then “All is He”. Everything is He. He is the Creator.
So what is not HE? Only the fear that “a particular activity is not a Godly activity” which makes it so? As any kind of fear brings in a shrinking feeling it must be so.
So by Letting God, I continue to write this…
Life takes us through different phases; gives us more and more experiences, enriches us, nourishes us. Experiences become painful or nourishment, with the way we look at it.
I am currently in one such phase and the more I ponder the more I realize that I have to walk my path, all by myself. There is no other to do that for you, and your only company is God. When He is there with you, then you feel the peace, you suddenly find relief in a pain you are going through. Currently I am trying to take these experiences of pain with love, thus letting go of all fear based thoughts, conditionings and feelings.
Letting the inner Love shine through me as much.
Even though I like to be a shining beam of love all the time, years of conditioning and ego takes me away from this central theme. Hence I have appointed one part me to keep reminding this to me that I have to Let go of Fear based thoughts and let only God’s Love in. Whenever that part is conscious I am progressing and letting go more and more so as to welcome the New.
I always love using this analogy for God since I began my inner journey and started finding the connection with Him through my inner Self. It is that He is like “the Powerful Friend” that Bruce Wayne has to get things done. Transforming to your true Batman Self and letting go of the egoist wants, needs and other fears will bring peace, harmony, love and joy in life.
Even though I feel this part of me coming forward many times, it is really difficult to be Batman all the time. Meditation, Quieting my mind and other tools like “Remembering and Offering” helps me.
Sometimes grounding meditation – like being a tree which is growing all the way up for light and having deep nourished roots on Mother earth helps me clear fear based energies. Sometimes being washed with pure light. Catching the thoughts and not letting thoughts take you rather guiding the thoughs consciously helps.
Ofcourse I am not a beaming light radiating with Love all the time (though I wish) it is a constant process. Here Remembering and offering helps a lot.
I associate with some objects and that reminds me to go inward and offering all the unwanted energy, thoughts or fears to God or the Divine Mother or Gaia during the grounding meditation.
I am sure this or similar thing has happened to almost all of us – we would keep looking for a lost item over and over in all possible places thinking we would find it. Then we would move on thinking it is lost and from nowhere this would appear.
This is the closest example I can come with for portraying Letting go & Letting God. By completely stepping aside our ego self and letting our true inner self take actions that brings harmony and peace.
I feel blessed for those times I am able to let go of “my” needs, wants, desires and Let God. During all other times, I offer that egoist self of mine also to God or Universe so that it is transformed.
Ending the note wishing that all our super hero selves come forward and bring more light for the world.